Though I am still very much in love with you, that does not mean I am not still angry at you… or that I trust you. But, the fact that I do love you; and I mean that seriously, makes dealing with these things a bit easier. Because that feeling of love is always there, in the background; acting as sort of an anchor. It holds me back when the other emotions strive to come forward.
So, I cope with your intransigence and silence. But, that doesn’t mean I like it. However, because I care about you… I really dislike the thought of you getting hurt. Which also keeps my stronger emotions in check. But; I really think that you need to wake up and smell your own bullshit, too! You need to start doing some deep introspection and figure out exactly how badly you treat everyone around you, including all those people you SAY you care about, especially K.
You will have a severe wake-up call coming when you start that process. Trust me on that one; I’ve already had mine, thanks to you. But, OK; I’m beat and I’m going to bed. Miss you… see you when the Cat in the Hat comes over and brings his friends.